Sunday, December 16, 2012

Whispering




That's all that I can really do.. whisper.. and I hope the wind will sends it to you... all the way from here.. enough for me that I keep this love in my heart.. to secretly loves you still.. to secretly cares for you still.. let Allah SWT led this love in me to where it should really be.. Allah SWT knows best to whom this love I have in me should be handed to.. to you still or maybe insyaAllah one day to someone else.. what ever it is, Fi-amanillah awak.. I know you'll be fine there.. because Allah SWT is there to take care of you.. better than I ever can.. better than anyone ever can... 

sincerely,
Nad

i miss Allah



Ya Allah, I miss you. I just want to get back to you, back to where I belong. I don’t belong in here, in Dunya, this is not where my heart belongs. This is not where our hearts belong. Please be pleased with me.


sincerely, 
Nad


Sunday, October 28, 2012

Mok yg terkorban

Mok pergi pada Asar Oct 27 2012, 11Zulhijjah raya haji ke dua,excident. Had a really bad injured at his head. We love him so much,hes like one of my fam member. Even my dad pun sedih. Ayah syg sgt kt Mok, Mok kucing buta sebelah mata yg sgt manja,tak byk kerenah, tak pernah nk merengek. Mok sgt baik. BerMula dgn adik Mat jmpa dia kat dewan depan rumah, sgt kurus, basah,kotor,mata cedera/buta sebelah kanan,masih baby. Adk Mat ambik bwk balik rumah, bg makan,mandi..Mok terus suka duk dkt rumah. Aku yg bru blik dr cuti Sem tahun lepas terus ajak adk Mat beli makanan kucing, slma ni ayah bg mkn ikan. Kalau nak tau, before ni mak ayah kami tak bg pelihara kucing sbb takda sapa nak jaga, dan nti busuk. Tp sbb kesian tgk Mok yg buta,mak ayah izin je,tak marah pun. Ayah pun syg dia. Mok tak byk kerenah,apa saja bg semua dia makan,tak mcm yg sekor lg sebaya dia, suka memilih. Lama2 Mok makin gemuk! Comel gler! Masa kami adik beradik takda kt rumah, Ayah bangun pagi2 terus teringat kt kucing, bg makan. Mok jd manja dgn ayah, dgn semua org. Ayah buat sangkar utk Mok. Kalau aku balik, msti terus Mok datang manja2 dgn kita. Suka giler perasaan tu. Bg mandi wangi2 ajak tido atas katil dgn aku. Dah la tak pernah pun berak merata, dia kucing yg sgt baik gemuk dan pintar.Nama Mok pun sbb gemok., mula2 aku letak nama Eye sbb unik takda mata sebelah,lama2 jd Ayie..tp Mok jgk yg lekat. Kalau tgk masa mula2 jumpa dulu, kurus nyawa2 ikan je.. Nasib adk mat aku berhati mulia ambik bwk balik,rawat dia. Tapi tak sgka bila dah manja,dah syg sgt,Mok pergi buat selamanya. Selama ni Mok tak pernah keluar rumah, tak berani pi smpai jalan. Kalau tinggal pun dia duk kt keliling rumah je. Dia mmg tak pandai pi jauh2 maybe sbb dia pun takot dan syg kan tmpat tinggal dia selama ni. Tp tak tahu kenapa kelmarin ayah jumpa dia masih panas terbaring tepi jalan depan rumah. Kami yg laen tak ada pergi rumah Tok, kenduri korban. Ayah pun dari rumah Tok jgk,blik rumah sekejap. Aku dgn ita dgn adik mat duk sembang2 atas tangga rumah Tok masa ayah call adik mat ckp Mok kena langgar. Ya Allah, tekejut gila kami! Sedih bila tgk Mok,badan ok tp kepala kena gilis, mata yg lg satu terjujur keluar. Mmg sedih, bdan panas lg.. Ayah suruh tggu Mak balik dlu bru tanam, abg mak tgok dulu.. Lepas mak balik, kami pun tanam Mok kt halaman rumah. Sayu sgt. Mok, kami syg hang, kami rindu hang. Betol ke nyawa kucing ada 9? Kalau betol muncul la kembali dlm hidup kami. Entahlah. Wallahu 'alam. 

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Tuesday, September 25, 2012

stronger

Life in a super new environment is not that easy. Adaptation, thats the word. New people, places,culture,thinking. Nothing's familiar. You're completely out of your comfort zone and its the real challenge. And its good sometimes. We have to figure out new things every single day. Its a changing process for better suited to that new environment.  For me, few days here feeling lonely ,sad and sorrow, dark and scary, nothing's seems right. I want my normal comfort teenage life back! My heart's screaming every single night! I cant believe my life would be like this, what am i doing right now is not me. I deserve more!..etc.. Normal. All these feeling will be last for weeks,months or even years depends individual. Then,you will understand that life is the climb,  its a learning process,at the end you're getting better and stronger! Inshaallah xx

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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

my 1st mc

This morning..
Sakit perut ,period pain.
Ya Allah kuatkan hati jgak nk g keja. Tapi 1tahap smpai dah xtahan, mampu duduk je dpan pintu rumah, sakit Allah yg tahu. Jam menunjukkan jam 8.15am. Tahan lg. Duduk mencangkung dpan pintu,ya Allah. Larat ke nk bwk motor ni? Muka pucat lesu. Dlm 10min++ jgk duduk je,tak mampu nk bangun. 8.40am Mis XXX call tnya masuk keje tak, aku tak mampu nk jawab. Tgn terketar2. Dgn sedikit kudrat, "period pain", tu je mampu keluar. Then aku tak pasti Miss XXX ckt ape..blank.. Aku yg dr td duduk sedaya upaya bangun, capai kunci masuk rumah,bilik. Terus merekot atas toto nipis itu. Ya Allah, Apa yg mampu aku buat. Msg Emma, rakan karib. Tak tau nk ngadu pd sapa. Tiada keluarga disini. Allahu akbar.
Terima kasih byk kpada Kak Lia, kwn sekampung even tak rapat pun b4 ni, rupanya tinggal di jalan kebun jgk. G klinik, dapat mc xoxo

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mother

Ques: Who should i give my love to after Allah and Rasulullah?
Ans: Your mother :)
Ques: Who next?
Ans: Your mother
Ques: Who next?
Ans: Your mother

I love you so much, youre my sunshine my only sunshine

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senyum


hanya mampu tersenyum walau sakit dan pedih Bunga matahari mampu menberi sinar dlm hidup kita,analulu
Xx
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Tuesday, July 10, 2012

HA HA HA x

I laugh out loud reading back my old post here. I dont even know what I'm writing about,how the hell i got the idea and bla bla bla ha ha ha xx. Really weird to read it back. Fan girl's thing i guess.. xoxo

Monday, July 9, 2012

Lost in the Blog-tracts xx


Life have been so busy. No time for blogging haha. 

EXPLANATIONS:


1) studying
2) LAB works
3) Thesis (submited my bacelor degree thesis already yay!)
4)

 Harry Edward Styles

 Zayn Malik

 Liam Payne

 Louis Tomlinson

Niall Horan



ONE DIRECTION

these five stupid boys bother all the time XD 

love xx

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I Surrender - Celine Dion


There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire is burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground

And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you

'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no they can't take that away from me
And they will see

'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Can't you hear my call
I surrender all

p/s: Favorited this song. Really great song..

Monday, January 2, 2012

hurt



Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

P/s: I'm sorry mt dear... I've hurt my self right now.. by hurting you... I'm sorry... T_T

I'm sorry that i love you.. you..you..