Sunday, December 16, 2012
Whispering
i miss Allah
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Mok yg terkorban
Mok pergi pada Asar Oct 27 2012, 11Zulhijjah raya haji ke dua,excident. Had a really bad injured at his head. We love him so much,hes like one of my fam member. Even my dad pun sedih. Ayah syg sgt kt Mok, Mok kucing buta sebelah mata yg sgt manja,tak byk kerenah, tak pernah nk merengek. Mok sgt baik. BerMula dgn adik Mat jmpa dia kat dewan depan rumah, sgt kurus, basah,kotor,mata cedera/buta sebelah kanan,masih baby. Adk Mat ambik bwk balik rumah, bg makan,mandi..Mok terus suka duk dkt rumah. Aku yg bru blik dr cuti Sem tahun lepas terus ajak adk Mat beli makanan kucing, slma ni ayah bg mkn ikan. Kalau nak tau, before ni mak ayah kami tak bg pelihara kucing sbb takda sapa nak jaga, dan nti busuk. Tp sbb kesian tgk Mok yg buta,mak ayah izin je,tak marah pun. Ayah pun syg dia. Mok tak byk kerenah,apa saja bg semua dia makan,tak mcm yg sekor lg sebaya dia, suka memilih. Lama2 Mok makin gemuk! Comel gler! Masa kami adik beradik takda kt rumah, Ayah bangun pagi2 terus teringat kt kucing, bg makan. Mok jd manja dgn ayah, dgn semua org. Ayah buat sangkar utk Mok. Kalau aku balik, msti terus Mok datang manja2 dgn kita. Suka giler perasaan tu. Bg mandi wangi2 ajak tido atas katil dgn aku. Dah la tak pernah pun berak merata, dia kucing yg sgt baik gemuk dan pintar.Nama Mok pun sbb gemok., mula2 aku letak nama Eye sbb unik takda mata sebelah,lama2 jd Ayie..tp Mok jgk yg lekat. Kalau tgk masa mula2 jumpa dulu, kurus nyawa2 ikan je.. Nasib adk mat aku berhati mulia ambik bwk balik,rawat dia. Tapi tak sgka bila dah manja,dah syg sgt,Mok pergi buat selamanya. Selama ni Mok tak pernah keluar rumah, tak berani pi smpai jalan. Kalau tinggal pun dia duk kt keliling rumah je. Dia mmg tak pandai pi jauh2 maybe sbb dia pun takot dan syg kan tmpat tinggal dia selama ni. Tp tak tahu kenapa kelmarin ayah jumpa dia masih panas terbaring tepi jalan depan rumah. Kami yg laen tak ada pergi rumah Tok, kenduri korban. Ayah pun dari rumah Tok jgk,blik rumah sekejap. Aku dgn ita dgn adik mat duk sembang2 atas tangga rumah Tok masa ayah call adik mat ckp Mok kena langgar. Ya Allah, tekejut gila kami! Sedih bila tgk Mok,badan ok tp kepala kena gilis, mata yg lg satu terjujur keluar. Mmg sedih, bdan panas lg.. Ayah suruh tggu Mak balik dlu bru tanam, abg mak tgok dulu.. Lepas mak balik, kami pun tanam Mok kt halaman rumah. Sayu sgt. Mok, kami syg hang, kami rindu hang. Betol ke nyawa kucing ada 9? Kalau betol muncul la kembali dlm hidup kami. Entahlah. Wallahu 'alam.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
stronger
Life in a super new environment is not that easy. Adaptation, thats the word. New people, places,culture,thinking. Nothing's familiar. You're completely out of your comfort zone and its the real challenge. And its good sometimes. We have to figure out new things every single day. Its a changing process for better suited to that new environment. For me, few days here feeling lonely ,sad and sorrow, dark and scary, nothing's seems right. I want my normal comfort teenage life back! My heart's screaming every single night! I cant believe my life would be like this, what am i doing right now is not me. I deserve more!..etc.. Normal. All these feeling will be last for weeks,months or even years depends individual. Then,you will understand that life is the climb, its a learning process,at the end you're getting better and stronger! Inshaallah xx
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
my 1st mc
This morning..
Sakit perut ,period pain.
Ya Allah kuatkan hati jgak nk g keja. Tapi 1tahap smpai dah xtahan, mampu duduk je dpan pintu rumah, sakit Allah yg tahu. Jam menunjukkan jam 8.15am. Tahan lg. Duduk mencangkung dpan pintu,ya Allah. Larat ke nk bwk motor ni? Muka pucat lesu. Dlm 10min++ jgk duduk je,tak mampu nk bangun. 8.40am Mis XXX call tnya masuk keje tak, aku tak mampu nk jawab. Tgn terketar2. Dgn sedikit kudrat, "period pain", tu je mampu keluar. Then aku tak pasti Miss XXX ckt ape..blank.. Aku yg dr td duduk sedaya upaya bangun, capai kunci masuk rumah,bilik. Terus merekot atas toto nipis itu. Ya Allah, Apa yg mampu aku buat. Msg Emma, rakan karib. Tak tau nk ngadu pd sapa. Tiada keluarga disini. Allahu akbar.
Terima kasih byk kpada Kak Lia, kwn sekampung even tak rapat pun b4 ni, rupanya tinggal di jalan kebun jgk. G klinik, dapat mc xoxo
mother
Ques: Who should i give my love to after Allah and Rasulullah?
Ans: Your mother :)
Ques: Who next?
Ans: Your mother
Ques: Who next?
Ans: Your mother
I love you so much, youre my sunshine my only sunshine
senyum
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
HA HA HA x
Monday, July 9, 2012
Lost in the Blog-tracts xx
Life have been so busy. No time for blogging haha.
EXPLANATIONS:
1) studying
2) LAB works
3) Thesis (submited my bacelor degree thesis already yay!)
4)
Sunday, February 19, 2012
I Surrender - Celine Dion
And this fire is burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you
'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no they can't take that away from me
And they will see
'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Can't you hear my call
I surrender all
Monday, January 2, 2012
hurt
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
P/s: I'm sorry mt dear... I've hurt my self right now.. by hurting you... I'm sorry... T_T
I'm sorry that i love you.. you..you..